biography - Wieni - clown, pantomime, magician - Wieni - clown, pantomime, magician

biography - Wieni - clown, pantomime, magician

my biography

thousand possibilities.

to tell my story.

to share with people around the world.

disgrace and weakness. 

a small door. in clown.

summary

birth. 1965. 

searching for food and love. 

weeks later also for fun and happiness.  

different programs in my head. 

changing in periods of life.

baby. child. teenager. 

adult over 30. older.

 

many people. writing in my heart and in my head. 

my parents, my grandparents, my pastors, my neighbours with other beliefs and till contrary opinions, my teachers in many schools, my schoolmates, my trainers in chess sport, the disciplinarians in military, my friends, my girl-friend, my wife, my chiefs in different jobs, my consultants, multimedia informations, much others, myself, and the hormones in my body.

the sum of all scripts was my screenplay for my life. 

the sum of all scripts was my confession of faith.

the sum of all scripts was my bondage.

the sum of all scripts was my identity. 

some scripts was contradictory. error-prone.

1978 - 1982 nickname W i e n i. in the school. from my schoolmates.

the nickname means: I have a buckled dorsum as a Wiener sausage. 

1986 - veteran. military career. 

till instructor soldier in nursing school. in military hospital. 

1982 - 1993 business career. 

apprentice of each jobs in a company.  

1993 - 1999 managing director.  

1998 - 1999 fortune. life fate. one more. one more again.

interactive strange and self-inflicted.

1999 a lot of different mental-health problems. simultaneous. 

totally failed state inside of me.

1999 - 2006 searching for healing. 

very intensive. myself. alone.

a journey through my deepest hells und entangled labyrinths.

surprise. clown techniques are beneficial for me. 

clumsiness.

burlesque of my own weaknesses. 

making the contrary. 

with a 180 degree rotation of my perspective or weaknesses. 

the opposite is more true and beneficial? 

and also as reality experienced in live. 

genuine smile and laugh.

2006 now only little suffering. but I feel. 

something is missing for my deepest healing.

after my loudest cry outside in the middle of universe. 

the answer inside me. expansion of my awareness. 

at the periphery:

the thoughts and feelings of all beings is globated.

my own thoughts and feelings on the periphery is a spherical segment.

I am not my temporarily manifested thoughts and feelings.

in the innermost core, sanctum:

I am untouchable, unwritten, intact, healthy, unawakened, 

a pulsating probality. like a newborn baby.

all the last years. always. 

for me. this is the least same denominator set for all beings.

for comprehension, respect, forgiveness, peace, love, healing, salvation. 

spontaneous and sustainable healing in me. 

tears of happiness. 

weeping. laughting.

for me are all creatures in the innermost core and sanctum same.

as I.  W i e n i. 

transformation of my nickname.

W i e _ n _ i  is a swiss german word combination and means: as I. 

2006 - today. 

inner vocation as clown.